No matter what I do, I will never be truly happy. Injustice and torment floods my brain every goddamn day. That man will never be raped after doing it to me. That other man will never be held upside down and beaten after doing it to me. That evil woman will never be beaten and taunted for 14 fucking years after doing it to me. Injustice. It's all I can think about. It's not fair. What the fuck did I do to deserve this shit? And no matter how much I want to just end my suffering, I know that they win if I kill myself. But they've already won. They've ruined my life and continue to enjoy there's. No matter what, I lose. And I hate this fucking feeling. I hate that I can't walk up to at least one of them this very second and scar them for life. I hate that no matter how many short periods of happiness I have, I'll still end up wanting to blow my brain out of my skull and make someone else scrape all my memories off the fucking wall. And no matter how long I spend writing rants like this, I never feel better after getting it out. But much like life, at least I can say I'm trying. And I will keep trying. But just because I'm trying doesn't make it any easier.

This is a milestone

Clap for me

Clap those phat ass booty cheeks

Make that fucking ass clap

Now swing your cock in a circle

Yeah slap my face with that big dick

You're so fucking perfect

But not as perfect as me

Because I have 100 newspoasts

Now lick my hot steamy fart cannon

Yeah suck dat femboy ass

BRRRRAAAAAAAAAAAAAPPPPPP

Uh oh baby made an oopsie

What sense does it make to ban everyone who poasted in it?

What counts as spam these days?

Should I just have to watch my ass every time I poast in any thread?

Bad job @Malachy

lets look at some examples of what i personally would consider spam, my definition being shit that means literally nothing.

one of the dumb 4 threads a day this guy poasts

just a picture

another one from belthagor

even i poast stupid shit that i would consider spam

all the fucking time

but you didnt ban me or anyone else for those things

dont try to enforce rules if you're inconsistent

I don't know how I never knew this but it's on my medical records and everything

But I don't understand because I've never hallucinated or heard voices

I don't know how to feel about this

EDIT:

i've processed it a litle and it kinda does explain a lot

this is the last straw tho, so im finally just gonna apply for disability because my job wont give me hours and im too stupid to hold down most jobs no matter how hard i try so getting a second job just wont happen for now

hopefully money wont be as tight as my dickhole when i do this

I got banned for making a "spam thread"

Where all I said was happy femboy day show me your butthole

Don't know how that's spam since Ive only been posting like 4 times a day this week

And that type of stuff gets poasted every hour

But nothing I can do about it

Hope banning me managed to cure @malachy's boredom

big fart

this album im making is gonna be the death of me

Haunt me, they will feel you

They will kill you, hold me

I thought you loved me

You hate me, you raped me

Four years old, ripe for sexual activity

Your mother doesn't know a goddamn thing

Oblivious, a broken leg, stop your whining

Listen to your grandfather, he loves you

Why did he throw the chair?

Mother, why did he throw the chair?

It's not my fault I don't remember

What I do when I'm blackout drunk

Justify your actions with drug abuse

You fucking raped your own grandchild and never got your punishment I fucking hate you I want to slit your throat

Why did pop pop throw the chair?

Mother, why did he throw the chair?

No love, no peace, not a moment's peace

There's no peace, never a moment's peace

This is the reality you live in, no peace

Pop pop's cute little innocent fucktoy gets no peace

I want you dead, I want you dead

No peace, not a moment's peace

There's no peace, never a moment's peace

You will never find a moment's peace

edit: also im banned from the bbs for a week so yeah

Force your nose betwixt my fart flaps you fucking libtard